dreaming of the days May 31, 2007 thursday - 00:37 why is it that you make me cry so easily when he never did? why is it that i miss you so much.. but what i miss is something i never had? i'm sick of pretending to be happy. sick of pretending to smile, to laugh. but i don't know what i want. i don't know what i need. the absence of desire is nirvana. but the opposite of desire is need. i want you next to me. i want you holding me. i want you to make me feel safe. loved. but i dare not ask. because i am being selfish. and because i know you will say no. because you are being selfish. although i did ask, a drop in the darkness, that you did not hear. a sigh that was lost in the wind that rushed between us. if you kept records. and you are flying away, your plane roaring into the sky, tearing a hole in the clouds: diaryland | archive | newest entry | profile
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