November 03, 2007 saturday - 21:51
as time cycles around, and i feel like i am coming back to the beginning, it is hard to not draw the parallels. it is hard not to remember, and to try and keep forgetting.
i must forget. even if my soul aches with the loss of memory.
and for this.. you are no longer the only one i blame.
i musn't remember. because it's not right to live in the past. not even to take short vacations there.
but i close my eyes and you are there; i breathe in and it is your scent; i reach out and feel your clothes beneath my fingers; i sleep and i dream that you are beside me; i awake and i turn to look at a shaded sunrise we once watched together.
how can i forget all this?