June 24, 2009 wednesday - 23:09
i am drowning, i am disappearing. i am falling, spinning, i am turning into dust.
nobody can see me, nobody can hear me. my heart is screaming, but there is no air and there is no sound.
here it comes - the streak, flashing red, the old familiar pull, the long-ago sting. tomorrow the pain will dull, ache, but for tonight, it sings.
familiar. familiar. the unmistakeable call that cannot go unheeded. the need. the clenching teeth.
this is personal. pure. this is me, no bullshit, no posturing, no symbols, no meaning hidden between the lines. this is just what i need. what i am.
so this is what it all comes down to..