to the ends of the earth
July 08, 2007 sunday - 22:58
i feel like i want to hurt somebody.
every pose of yours is familiar to me. the way you hold your head. the curve of your mouth when you smile or when you frown. the peculiar movement of your hand. the shape of your eyelids when you blink.
and i sit there, across the table from you, feeling shattered and afraid. and somehow it feels like something inside me is breaking.
but i don't know why it is so painful. i don't know how to make it better. i don't know why it hurts so much. i don't know why i am trembling and can't stop.
please take this cup away from me.