maybe it is better not to have feelings happiness - sadness - everything in between
they never last.. fleeting, momentary, unreal and then there is the day after, the morning comes, and reality returns, and nothing ever happened there, then, is the guilt i don't want it it would be better not to have feelings leave only the pain something i can feel.. something real.. something tangible, something bearable, which goes away, and after it goes away there is only a memory and memory is only a shell, hollow, an echo.. but the memory of guilt hurts even worse
