March 25, 2007 sunday - 18:53
there is nothing i can say that wouldn't make me a hypocrite.
betrayal. cowardice. lust. lying. pride. there is none of these that i am not guilty of.
i wish it didn't happen. i wish i had the guts to face up to it earlier. i wish i had not been such an immature, irresponsible asshole.
i was drunk. on alcohol, on power. i didn't think.
if there is anything, i deserve it. i deserve your hatred. i deserve the rumours, the malice, the gossip. i deserve to be hung, drawn and quartered.
i hate myself, and i deserve your hatred too.
but i did it because i love you.