this is turning out all wrong
July 11, 2007 - 23:47
i feel my life fraying, not just at the edges but down to the center too.
i don't know what is going on in class but i don't want to find out.
because i don't want to see you.
i don't want to hurt any more. but i am here, alone, suffering.
i wanted to just enjoy the pleasure of your company, without fear or subtext or underlying tension.
i don't want this.. but i can't imagine it any other way. what am i to do now? can you tell me?