maybe many years ago
February 11, 2006 saturday - 08:44
between the skipped meals and liquid (meaning, unfortunately, alcohol) diet i've been having, i've lost obvious amounts of weight. i haven't weighed myself, but i suspect i'm already close to my lowest ever weight.
here, in the north, without temptation, money, or expensive buffets, it's easy to slough off the fats.
i'm going to do it. i'm going to do it. i can do it.
but it's not just the weight. compared to people here, i'm pretty, i'm slim, i'm exotic. i feel good about myself. i am confident.
i'm terrified of going home. back where the weather is hot and people wear miniskirts and spag strap tops; where everyone is underweight; where weekends mean good food and overeating.