October 15, 2006 sunday - 01:31
how is it that you can hurt me just by... not saying or doing anything?
you always want what you can't have
more than 3 months ago, a lifetime before, i wrote: the only things worth wanting sometimes are the ones we cannot have.
if suffering allows us to know we are alive, then:
it was never meant to be this way.
and yet i believe i would still do it all over again. even at this cost.
so i am alive, and i will continue to live.. but i'm not sure i will survive.