even the freest of relationships involves the most restrictions. friends with benefits - but maybe the costs outweigh the benefits. because there are so many rules, and see it takes out of you: you are not allowed to fall in love you are not allowed to complain you are not allowed to dream you are not allowed to think of a future. that's what it means, no strings attached. but the strings are there, wrapped around your heart to keep it close to you. no matter what, you cannot let go of it. and you cannot cry, or speak out, or ask for anything.
to be careless, you have to be so careful. it's not worth it.