every time i think it couldn't possibly hurt any more, it does. every time i think i couldn't feel possibly feel any worse, i do. every thing i thought wouldn't matter suddenly does. every time i smile at you, something inside me dies a little more. every time i think of you, i get angrier. every time i tell myself nobody's to blame, i feel more bitter. every thing i promise myself not to do, i find myself doing. every thing i tell myself not to care about, i do. every promise i make, i find myself breaking.
why does it hurt so much? why? why do i want you so much?