i am falling in love with you. i am in you, within you, cushioned in you, swimming in you. when i am with you, everything else ceases to exist. i lie on your chest and trace a line down the crest of your chin, the soft hollows of your neck, the sharp corners of your shoulders. we float in a cloud of linen above the streets, and i am consumed in you. i wear your scent on my skin. i wear you like a shirt. i feel, for the first time.. happiness. a sort of happiness. this sort of happiness. security. comfort. trust. hope.
every night i pray for you, wanting so much that my heart breaks. i don't understand. God, i don't understand. would You give me this only to take it away?
