i walk and i look for a crevice, i want to fall, but the ground is hard and full and there are no cracks, nothing beneath which i can disappear.. i cannot sleep.. i cannot rest... i cannot get drunk... i am so tired i want to rest but i can't find it..
i want my perfect man someone who is beautiful and painful cruel, when cruelty is called for, and kind, when kindness is not deserved heartstoppingly arrogant and honestly humble viciously proud and innocently pure talented and perceptive silent when discretion is required, loud and hilarious when attention is necessary flippantly brilliant and subtly snide charming and sexy and chillingly aloof
