being afraid of nothing
March 18, 2003 Tuesday - 22:07
is not something everyone can understand.
how many see emptiness within them? a hole in the soul, it is something only God can fill. but who even notices it is there? life is too noisy, there are too many friends and lessons and outings and movies and tv shows and shopping and train rides and dates and things. and without silence it is impossible to notice the nothingness under the slicked-over surface.
and it is hard to be afraid of this emptiness, because it is not something tangible, not like a breakup or a death or a disease. and because upon acknowleging it, it is hard to understand what it even is.
and it is scary, and awful, and painful.