summer dreaming October 12, 2006 thursday - 02:46 the days slip by like stones dropping into a pond; a splash, ripples, and then black water closing over it. i write this here because i know you do not read it. so this is what it is like to need someone, i realise: it hurts when you are not around. i need you. that's it. simple. and what you do, have you any idea what it's doing to me? i want to be non-threatening. i want to be a canvas, blank, white; here for you to paint your desires upon, to cover with your design. need. it is such a powerful word. it demands attention, it is its own justification. those few weeks remain fixated in my mind. even when i have forgetten what they were like, or what you were like, or what i felt.. i remember what we did. to have something. don't we all crave attention? i need you because you gave that to me. now that i recognise that, it is time for me to leave. yet.. i can't. i know all this. i know i am addicted to a feeling. i know it is false. i know i could never want you. yet i do. You were there for summer dreaming diaryland | archive | newest entry | profile
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