looking down the road you should be taking
November 17, 2001 Saturday - 00:16
knowing there's so much more to say
my walls are closing in
if she deserved you, if she had you... why not me?? i don't know how i am less worthy than her. it seems ridiculous almost. how is it that to you she (once) was a better person than i am now?
i'm so envious of how she had so much of your life, how she still has that hold over you though you say she doesn't... i don't know what you think anymore, and i don't think i ever did.. i guess it is true. i know i wished for it not to be.. but i am selfish, egocentric, attention-seeking, proud, stuck-up, etc, etc... is that why i lost you?
i don't deserve you. i don't deserve you.
but you know what?
you don't deserve me.