under the sea
May 18, 2016 - 21:18
i feel heavy. heaviness is like lead in my bones. it slows my movements. it flows like sludge through my blood.
heaviness is the certainty that all is useless, meaningless.
heaviness is the knowledge that i can never fall in love or have a child.
heaviness is a weight that i cannot bear. i drop beneath the waves tonight. i sink like a stone.
heaviness is coming home.