for all that i have wanted myself to be a certain way, i have become exactly opposite of all that.
this blog is becoming boring. pathetic as it is to say it, i think it was more interesting when i had a story to tell. when i had this or that problem or unrequited love or some sort of journey. but now i am so... settled. i have school. i am okay with my course. it suits me fine, though it doesn't excite me or stimulate me intellectually. my spiritual walk is fine too. i have grown so much closer to God and i am learning to love Him. the problems i encounter i merely vaguely describe. but when i return to read it i can't even remember what i was writing about.